Last Thursday, I lost my father to Stage IV Lung Cancer after a short battle.
Has it been a year already?
It feels like yesterday that I wrote 26 but yet, here we are….27.
The past year has been a bit of a up and down for me and realisation of who I really am.
I am not going to flaunt that my 26th year has been great…It has in some cases, but at other times, it hasn’t and like anything else, it is very easy to focus on the negatives.
- I went to New York, Germany and Greece for the first time this year and they were great!
- I got a new apartment this year and that was great!
- I met some new friends and that was great!
- I got depressed due to loneliness but it’s something that I am working on.
- I have a blog that is in the finals of the Blog Awards Ireland 2018 in the Sports Category!
There is probably about 101 things that I have missed, but that is some of the highlights!
So what about 27?
Well, I don’t have any goals and I am not going to set any. Some things that are happening though.
- I am going to Paris, France in February for the Final Fantasy XIV: Fan Festival
- I am going to Iceland!
And outside of that, I am going to be ‘relaxing’. Work as I have been doing for the last 3 years with Blacknight, work on the Wressling blog and I am planning on starting a new blog in relation to Overwatch Esports for Season 2 of the Overwatch League. More info on that later.
And who knows, plans will change and I cannot plan for an entire year. I have just got to see where 27 takes me!
Photo Credit: Geert Pieters
Over the last 9 years, I have been involving myself with a community that I have been trying to build but as of Summer 2017, I have decided to shut it down as it was getting to be too much of a chore to handle and it really wasn’t benefiting me.
Since then, I have been slowly winding down operations and I have decide to focus on myself. I covered in that in my post It’s all about me!
Since then, I have decided to look at stuff that I want to do. More blogging (not just here but on wressling.blog) and focus on doing what I enjoy…Play video games.
The last couple of years of working on Nologam/Enigma have seen me fade away from doing something that I created the community for in the first place…gaming.
So since I have stopped, I am playing more Final Fantasy XIV and I am looking to start doing streams every so often. Just so I can relax…It seems like a good time of year to do that..
I will still be around doing bits and pieces online and I will let you know if I have anything exciting coming up 🙂
Well, look at this fine specimen of a website.
This was the theme that I was using for my old WordPress.com site back in 2008 – https://padraigfahy.wordpress.com/
I missed the old simple theme. No gimmicks, no clutter…nothing. Just simple blogging.
I looked at other ‘blogging themes’ but nothing is taking my interest. If you have a blogging theme, let me know which one you are using and I will have a look at it! 🙂
…True care…truth brings…
Say it ain’t so, I will not go
Turn the lights off, carry me home
Na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
~ “All the small things” by Blink 182
Ever since starting WeightWatchers (WW) over 3 months ago, I have made some small changes which has helped me in a big way.
Before I started WW, I was having mugs of coffee with 2 teaspoons of sugar with a load of full fat milk!
Now, I am taking no sugar and I have replaced the milk with Soya milk. (Fecking hipster over here amirite?)
The big thing that I find with WW is that people that are not on a diet do not understand what changes that I am going though. My parents (god love them), they do not understand and when I explain to them that “I can only have X amount of Y per day” and their response (And others) are: “Are you not hungry?” and I’m like: “….no”
I’m sorry but I do not need a stick of butter to accompany my sweetcorn and I do not need a bottle of ketchup with my chips. You do not need these condiments. You do not need to have sugar or milk in your coffee (Unless you have been instructed by your doctor to have it of course 😛 )
Just small changes is all that is needed and you will be a bit healtier.
I do not claim to be any sort of dietician or “expert’…. just sharing my expereience with weightloss with WW!
First and foremost, the blog post relating to my trip to NYC will be available in drips and drabs over the next week or two!
Before I left for NYC, I decided to make a big decision on the future of my gaming community Enigma (Formerly Nologam) and that was to shut it down.
I have attempting to build a gaming community over the last 9 years and to this day, I have not been successful. After staying up for multiple nights and working on it, I felt that me continuing something that I didn’t have a passion for was….a waste on my physical and mental health.
So I decided to stop. Then today, I decided to look at what sites I was running and make some changes which is manageable and don’t require an absurd amount of time to maintain.
Padraig.blog will be staying as my main blog and there is no plans to change that!
Wrestling.irish is going to get a rebrand and will become Wressling.blog – More news on that over on wrestling.irish in the coming days/weeks.
As Enigma/Nologam has now been closed down, I have set up my own Discord server so people can keep in touch with me. If you wish to join, go to d.pf.ie
I may create something new in the future, but for now:
“It’s all about me”
Yesterday I turned the grand old age of 26!
The last year has been a very busy one with me doing more of what I love.
I attended my first gaming conference (ehhh…we can probably skip that), I also attended my first tech conference, and I attended my first WWE event.
I have also passed my drivers theory test and will be getting lessons very soon!
And I have been losing weight as well.
To celebrate me turning 26, I will also be taking a international trip to New York City next week! My first ‘proper’ holiday since 2008.
And it got me thinking, I am so fecking lucky that I can do this.
I am lucky that I am able to go away on a holiday with friends, learning how to drive a car, going to all these events DESPITE some negativity I had throughout the year.
What about my online presence?
I have been blogging about wrestling now on a dedicated site away from my personal stuff because some people may not care for the wrestling content and that is fine.
My gaming community Nologam has been rebranded to Enigma. While it has been quiet since the rebrand, I am planning something big for 2018. More details on the blog later in the year.
As I now enter my 26th year, what I done last year was just the tip of the iceberg and I will do more going forward!
Last night, I built a LEGO set (75156) and here is pics after each bag!
Bag Seven (Opened)
Bag Seven (Closed)
(There will be some negativity and whining…If you are not into that, please leave)
The past while for me has been a bit of as bumpy one. Ever since I moved to Carlow, I haven’t feeling myself.
I have gained a tonne of weight, feeling lonely and in some cases depressed.
First of all, I have started to feel homesick. Yes, I get to go home to my parents ever 4 – 6 weeks, but I cannot be relying on seeing my family to combat the loneliness (Not that I have a problem seeing them or anything)
I have been feeling like this more-so in the past say, 6 months but in recent weeks, it has started to affect me and it’s getting to me more than what it should.
When I come home in the evenings, I wouldn’t see anyone physically. Obviously that is down to be and the complete lack to be social. Yes, I get to talk to my friends on TeamSpeak but that is how far it goes. The only people that I would see on a daily basis is my colleagues at work.
I have started to live with it, because who the hell would want to go out with me or even be friends with.
There is that ONE friend that you always talk to on Facebook Messenger, WhatsApp or whatever, right? Nope. Not me. I could easily go a day without looking at my phone and go back to it and no one has messaged me.
I do make initial contact, I have gotten better at it in recent months, but then it turns out that they do not want to talk to me at all, which can be dis-heartening.
So as I sit here on a Friday night after a long day of work, it would have been nice to play some games or just have some fun, with friends, but it looks like I have to occupy myself by blogging and drinking cider.
There is people that I care about, a lot…but they obviously don’t have the same feelings for me and in some cases, they despise me.
What am I doing to improve this? Taking my mind off everything.
Listening to more music, watching more TV, reading books (which I have hardly done in my life) and playing some games here and there.
I want to be happy, but I know it is only going to get worse, before it get’s better and that is the cold hard truth.